Manifesting an Angel

Manifesting an angel...not something I've ever considered.

I haven't written on this blog for over a month. The last moment I shared here was my calling to be baptized in the middle of an African village, where we found a natural lake that had formed just a few months prior to my arrival at that spot. I had no preparation but had been told that on this trip, I would be baptized in water outdoors and had not believed I would actually find the water Yah told me I'd see.

My faith was tested. I did not have faith that I would see what he told me I'd see, but in the end, I jumped in the water for my baptism just as I was called to do. I was rewarded with the progression of an even deeper relationship and a greater understanding of my calling.

See, I was awakened from my slumber in the midst of a life that felt challenging. I had been a successful person, doing well at getting clients for my marketing firm, and I had people working for me to help me execute the work. Even in my worst year, I made at least 6-figures of earnings, which for many is a big deal. But success was tiring. I had children who were in the house while working from home. Even at my high-income level, it was unreasonable to spend $4,000+ on childcare, and I didn't want my kids sent away, so I only had part-time childcare and worked diligently to use that time to get as much work done as possible. Then I worked while the children played and while they slept and stressed while I kept struggling to make sure I got results that kept clients happy, kept getting new clients, and kept the house up. I was hyped up on coffee and laboring at all times. And with groceries costing thousands per month, it was a cycle I couldn't get out of.

I felt like something needed to change, but I didn't know what could possibly change fast enough to get me out of this situation.

Last month, Yah finally gave me the order to close my business. It was a direct order to get it done immediately. Prior to that, I had been told when I arrived here to wind down and set myself back out of the work and let those I hired to do what they could to hold the business up while I settled in here in Namibia. I knew the call to close it completely was coming, but I didn't think it would be so soon. So, I spent the last month closing things down, and I'm in the final stages of completing that task.

I say all this to tell you that I was awakened in the midst of a life of drudgery. If you're also an American, you likely understand. I don't know enough about life in other countries to understand what that looks like, but I know we Americans work ourselves to the bone and latte our way through it. Awakening in that busy life is a challenge. I was so busy, so stressed, and staying up late to read my bible and understand what was going on in this world I now understood was completely corrupt. I tried to act normal in my daily conversations with clients, talking with friends/family and neighbors, but at that point, it became really hard to talk about normal things.

All I wanted to talk about was Yah, but not many people wanted to talk about that.

Because I spent so much time alone and seeking in the evenings I was able to tap into hearing with new ears. The Bible says, "He Who Has Ears to Hear, Let Him Hear," and I never knew what that really meant. Now I believe I understand that our ears become open to hearing the word of Yah when we truly seek him and give our full attention to him.

My loneliness began to go away when I realized that I could hear Yah speaking to me. As that relationship developed, we began to talk all the time. I could lay out on the grass while the kids played and hear him telling me stories, explaining the world to me, telling me about my own awakening. I thought anytime someone heard from Yah that it was all prophecy, but a conversation with Yah is just that -- a conversation. We can just converse. He can educate me, tell me about who I am, and talk about my life choices and how he perceives it.

I usually have separate conversations with Yah and Yeshua (I'm using this version of pronunciation now as Yeshua personally asked me to start calling him this instead of Yahusha). Their voices can blend together at times because they are also on one accord and can speak at the same moment. I know that sounds complicated, but it is very real. Each day, I have at least 2-4 hours of meditation training with Yeshua. This means I work on focusing on his voice as he speaks to me and keeping my own feelings and thoughts away. He's training me to focus on him all the time and stay in a spiritual place rather than in my flesh. My calling requires me to be able to hear him always and speak on his behalf when needed, so I must be able to easily discern his voice even in the midst of chaos around me. The stronger his voice is in me the better I can do my job.

In yesterday's training session, he asked me to summon an angel. I told him I don't know how. Instead of telling me the answer he asked me to consider it. What would it take to summon an angel from heaven?

Today, as Yeshuah leads my hand to write this blog, I still don't truly know what it means to call an angel. Honestly, I am pretty sure I thought that was Yah's job and not something I was supposed to do. So today, I will study my word to understand the scriptural references for all those who saw angels and seek out what brought that angel to them.

The point here is not to tell you to go seeking angels but to share with you how Yeshua is working on teaching me. He gave me a challenge, and that challenge is meant to open my spiritual mind (aka intuition or 3rd eye). He's allowing me to seek within to find a knowing of what is true. He's also inviting me to seek the word in order to understand what my textbook called The Bible says about it. When I'm done, I'll come to him for the confirmation if I'm on the right track and he will let me know if my instinct about it being only Yah who can do this is correct or if indeed there are ancestors in the bible who did call upon angels appropriately.

Yeshua is like a combination of a college professor and a friend who just gets so excited for me to move forward to the next level. He's a king; he's kind but also terrifying. Yeshua has command over EVERYTHING! And yet, as my king, he can still send his spirit to work with me daily to help me become a critical thinker and understand the truth of The Most High.

--- UPDATE: I did my research through scripture, and nowhere does anyone summon an angel. The angels always come when Yah sends them for a purpose. So I went back to Professor Yeshua, and he has confirmed the only way angels are commanded is from Yah himself. We can pray to Yah, and at his will, when it is needed, he can choose to send angels on our behalf. OR if Yah has a purpose and a message to send he sends angels to manage that purpose for him. I was happy to be correct in what I thought was right, and sure enough it was a bit of a test of my instincts and understanding of the word and the principles in it.